I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be doing this for the wrong reason; as an easy way to avoid my problems. acim teacher The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to fairly share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider anything that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’peace of mind, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.